“Now ... if you trust in yourself ... and believe in your dreams ... and follow your star ... you'll still get beaten by people who spent their time working hard and learning things and weren't so lazy. Goodbye.” - The Wee Free Men, Terry Pratchett
Since Livejournal has been acting weirder than usual lately, I have saved all my entries in Word and move platforms to blogger!
I wanted to give a report about life and how I am doing with my year goals so far.
I am succeeding at certain things:
1) I believe I have begun to be more present when people talk to me, not interrupting or jumping to the next thing in my head.
2) I've also got a reading nook now, curtsy of Lee for our anniversary! I just need to use it more.
3) I have cut out my morning TV entirely. Instead I check e-mail (when I didn't, I would miss important messages about the day ahead before leaving the house), and then I meditate on a reading from a daily Narnia reading book, and then I read my fun book while I eat breakfast.
I am still working on other things:
1) Keeping active and eating healthier. I've got a wellness coach, but I missed our last meeting. I've been using Supertracker to track my food intake (calories, food groups, processed vs not). I have not been exercising at all. Yet in one month, I lost 10 pounds, which I did not want to do. No idea how it happened.
2) Not multitasking: I have been getting better at not watching TV and playing on the computer at the same time, but I still suck at listening to podcasts and webinars and trying to do work at work.
3) Making fewer commitments. My summer schedule laughs at this idea. It is difficult to make fewer commitments and yet try to accomplish all of your goals.
4) Not choosing TV first. This is probably the real reason why I have no time to accomplish my goals.
5) Taking time for me. Time for me = TV and internet right now. I've been skipping lunch at work too, which is a time when I go outside and read. I need to focus more on reading, walking, archery, and prayer/meditation. Can anyone recommend a good daily guided meditation?
6) Money. All my money goes to food and presents for other people. I'm still using my budget system, but I think I need to make it a bit less fluid and have a set amount I am allowed to spend on food and presents.
I've been feeling really scattered, fuzzy and reactionary lately. Partially because of poor diet and exercise, partially because this summer is full of activities and uncertainty. I have two shows and two classes. Both of the shows are having a difficult time giving me schedules. One show, I am uncertain exactly what they need me to do, and the other show, I have a huge case of impostor syndrome. I'm working with a lot of amazing fight people and I feel so out of shape and inexperienced. And I just got syllabi for my classes and they both look pretty intense. I had to turn down an audition for a show I really wanted to do just to keep my sanity. Which I think is a good thing: part of my goals was saying no to stuff and winnowing down to activities that really serve me.
I have been doing a lot of Sipping and Painting lately, where you go with friends to the Living Social building down town and sip wine while painting a picture. It is an awesome focuser and confidence builder (most of the time). I've painted three rather nice paintings that I am proud of.
Done lots of other fun things: had a clothing swap, went to several parties, went ice skating on the last day you could, had a board game day, Lee came with me and visited my church for Seder and Holy Thursday, took a fun tango lesson with Lee, went to Helen Hayes, saw several shows, and survived the 75th Anniversary of the drama department.
I'm also working on a few of my 30x30. I'm going to church next Sunday with several liberal Catholics to try and find a spiritual home. I have a person who is willing to go camping with me overnight.
I have also accomplished several of my professional goals: head shots and business cards!
I feel like I just have to get on top of things, get into a routine, take more time for myself and watch less TV. I'm thinking of even having a TV/ internet free week this summer.
We'll see. Making progress, just not as much progress as I would like. I will leave you with this awesome cartoon that sums up my life perfectly:
